find a well, make a wish

I wish you'd see how I'm transforming. but maybe not. see the end result. I'm doing nothing at present time. I'm doing so much at present time. I am ok, I tell myself every second. heart is racing on the verge of a heart attack. but these are bad thoughts and I will promise myself, some day this week, that I will forget them for once.

how do you get there when you have no energy left? I've been a complete mess lately. few know. no need for encouragements though. when I am upset like this, they bring me down. food brings me down instead of helping me get better.

and you get better when you stop fearing and when your soul is cured.