03 June 2010

dear everyone

as I find myself once again praying for some of my family members' health and trembling only at the thought of something terrible happening to them, I try to stay focused and keep their spirits high. as you know, I've been to a funeral a few weeks ago. it was my uncle who died and I didn't want to tell you then because it wasn't appropriate. I was there for my family and I couldn't not notice something: that those who care will know about this, will make a phone call by accident just to see how you feel and then they'll know. but those who never call you, but just enter your blog to see what have you been doing (that's spying on you-one of the most popular reasons people surf the Internet-, not caring), those are not friends, are just people who let me down over the years.

so I try to comfort myself telling me that it is gonna be alright. that this is my family and nothing wrong could happen to them. I would literally go insane.

good news, you'll say. give the good news, nobody wants to here about sadness. we all want to read about happiness, about falling in love, about having a wonderful day, with a delicious tea, a great book and the dearest one next to you.

good news, I'll give you. My flatmate moved out a few days ago and my new flatmate came along with the most wonderful rabbit in the whole world. as I love animals so much, I talk to the little fellow quite a lot as I'm petting him trying to make friends. he's just the most cutest (black) rabbit and he won't run away when you take him into your arms.

I'm now sitting next to the window, a little disturbed by the noise outside. but it's a beautiful evening and believe it or not, after 8 hours of writing at job, I find myself relaxing... by writing some more things. Isn't this weird?

I will also finish a book that Octavian sent me (he sent me 3, so there's only one left to be read) and it's just a wonderful book which brought tears to my eyes twice while reading it. and that only happened before with 2 books in my whole life. I think there might have been something in Nineteen Eighty-Four, but I'm not sure.

and that's pretty much all for today. but tomorrow I should write something happier. although you should know, I am rather happy.


  1. 1.you don't have to write something happier. if you don't feel like it, don't do it. write what you feel, how you feel! it is your space, your homie(how I like to call it :p), so if you feel in pain you tear down all the pain, if you feel joy, you may wanna share it with other people you can't show face2face.
    2. I guess that's the beauty of working with what you like, even if it's hard, tiring.
    3. I'm happy you have a new friend, yes, it will become your friend, it can't be any other way. Bibi taught me :p.
    4. concerning the delicate...part, you know, the other days I was thinking that if my parents would ...dissapear... and I stopped, cause only that humble thought was tearing me down.
    I can't say other things, cause I don't have the right to, I don't even know how real friends look like anymore, so... sorry for the long long words, but even if I'm a stranger, I feel like I have to tell you these words.
    5. maybe someday you'll share all those books that made you cry.
    6. even if things turn out bad, I really know you'll be able the handle them.
    cause you can.

  2. first off, multumesc mult pentru ca ai rupt din timpul tau si mi-ai lasat toate aceste randuri frumoase. chiar ma intristasem si acum vazand ca in momentul in care am atins alt sector de blogging, fara voia mea, au aparut si criticile. dar sunt sigura ca trec si asta, e scary cat de usor incep oamenii sa isi verse nervii pe Internet tocmai pentru ca au o foarte mare libertate, inteleasa gresit, cum era de asteptat aproape din partea oricarui roman. oricum, mai am de lucrat la partea cu ignorat anumite personaje.

  3. draga Verde Ursuz, daca acele persoane nu fac parte si din sufletul tau zi de zi, it really doesn't matter.
    asa trebuie!
    desi la prima vedere ne doare, pt ca ne pasa.
    dar tocmai pt noi, for our little piece of heart, we have to.

  4. :) asa e. :) si cred ca asta ar spune si budistii, compassion is everything, la urma urmei. multumesc!


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