08 November 2010

hey there, self

no use in bothering other people with your unhealthy thoughts, with your fears, with your heart torn apart, with your tears which you try to stop since 8 am this morning, with your anxiety and your need of saying all that to someone.

it's crazy, I feel so bad right now and there's nothing I can do, I have to just sit here and wait for six more hours (this is terrible, 6 hours!) and do my tasks and then leave the place and I just cannot do it. I'd rather be spending my day here, writing, but of course I cannot do that. I hate it, I hate this day, I hate that I feel this way, I hate that I am so weak, that I cannot change myself so fast, I hate that I care so much, I hate that I cannot put myself together and live somewhere else.

5 comments:

  1. there are moments in life when we all have "unhealthy thoughts", as you called them. the most important is to be able to overcome them somehow. do not hate yourself for caring, love yourself for being the way you are!enjoy every day, no matter how good or bad it is!

    P.S.:and cry whenever you fell like crying!it usually helps!

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  2. don't I know all those things... but thank you, I appreciate it.

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  3. Hai ca nu mai e mult pana maine..and you can rant all the way over tea or coffee, cause I could sure use that too :-) Heads up

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  4. oh yes, indeededo :) I do have lots of things to chichat about and I cannot wait for the tea meeting. :)

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